I Miss You

It was about 6pm when I woke up from my nap yesterday. I felt a slight headache. After the dinner I took a rest on the couch while watching TV. Right after I am done with the dishes I headed for the bed. I thought some rest would help to relieve the pain. I was wrong! It was just the beginning. The deep inner sensation pulsed every few second as if there was some bizarre creature munching on my brain from the inside.

Mum was worried and asked if I would wanna see the doc. Gladly I agreed to it. While waiting for my turn, I see people asking for pregnancy test, another old lady here for a check up and some kids chatting away. At the counter was some of my sister's friends as well as my schoolmates whom I barely know. Being called into the doc's room by my classmate's sis was abit weird. I gave a friendly smile at her.

Briefly told the doc of my situation and the doc did some tests. Facing me from the back he massaged the back of my head and I felt the sudden relief of the pain for some moment. Was given some pain killers and muscle relaxant. The Doc said that it could be that I don't drink enough water, lack of sleep and perhaps bad sleeping habits and patterns.

Back at home, took the pills and drank some water and head for the sacks. The ringing in my head didn't stop. Woke up at about 1am by the headache again. The intensity of the pain felt like it was multiplying. It was unbearable. I took in 2 more pills. I couldn't take it anymore and I reached for my phone. I wanted to make the call but it was so late. Didn't want to wake him up nor worry him. I didn't want to be a troublesome bf. I sat on the bed alone. Blankly I stared at the screen of my phone hoping that somehow he would call me. I cried each time the pain intensified. I wanted him to be with me. Am I selfish not letting him share the pain?

The night went on with me waking up every hour. I could hardly sleep. The painkillers had not much effect. I miss him so much. I really just wish that he could be by my side. By 5am the pain slowly subsided. I could finally get some peace. Dear, I really miss you.

~You Give Me Strength To Carry On~

Getting Serious

I have decide to take things one step ahead. I will bear with the discomfort that comes with it. I decided that he should not hide under that comfort and it's time to be a man. Lets take it to the fabric!!! He should feel it. Yes, I understand the chances that he may stand up and give me a hell of a time but its now or never. And yeah, he has stood up several times and hit me hard, so hard I thought "shit! Have I taken it too far??? Will it leave a scar?!" I can't back down. I won't lose to you! I won't compromise no matter how many tantrums you may throw :p

~You have to feel it~

Dealing with Pain

I am sure everyone here knows what is pain. Pain comes in many forms. The most common form of pain that we recognize would be physical pain. Be it is toothache, wounds, or self inflicted pain, we always find ways to deal with it. There are people that likes pain, the sensation is converted into pleasure in their mind. But I am not one of them, so no worries =)

There are many ways that people deal with this pain that is mostly unwanted. Pain killers, anesthetic, drugs, smoking, you name it. There are plenty. Bruises after a gruesome sparring session are normally dealt with ice.

For me, I personally find that when I concentrate on my breathing, it eases the feeling. I do wonder why doctors or nurses tell mothers to continue to breathe when delivering their infants. Anyone knows the reason?

When in pain, I find that singing a song helps to ease it too. Anyone ever tried this? I think the main thing that we have to do is to put our concentration on something else and not the on the pain. When we know it hurts and keep thinking about it, the pain will just stay there.

The same concept applies to workaholics and devoted gamers. Their focus is on work/play and when they don't think about food. They can go on the whole day without noticing hunger. But when these guys stumble upon bloggers that constantly blog about food, it reminds them of their hunger. I think most readers also get this. Even when you are not hungry, but looking at the pictures of food on William's or TZ's blog will just make you feel wanting to eat or perhaps a slight hunger. I am really amazed by how our mind could actually control so many things.

~It is all in the mind~