I Miss You

It was about 6pm when I woke up from my nap yesterday. I felt a slight headache. After the dinner I took a rest on the couch while watching TV. Right after I am done with the dishes I headed for the bed. I thought some rest would help to relieve the pain. I was wrong! It was just the beginning. The deep inner sensation pulsed every few second as if there was some bizarre creature munching on my brain from the inside.

Mum was worried and asked if I would wanna see the doc. Gladly I agreed to it. While waiting for my turn, I see people asking for pregnancy test, another old lady here for a check up and some kids chatting away. At the counter was some of my sister's friends as well as my schoolmates whom I barely know. Being called into the doc's room by my classmate's sis was abit weird. I gave a friendly smile at her.

Briefly told the doc of my situation and the doc did some tests. Facing me from the back he massaged the back of my head and I felt the sudden relief of the pain for some moment. Was given some pain killers and muscle relaxant. The Doc said that it could be that I don't drink enough water, lack of sleep and perhaps bad sleeping habits and patterns.

Back at home, took the pills and drank some water and head for the sacks. The ringing in my head didn't stop. Woke up at about 1am by the headache again. The intensity of the pain felt like it was multiplying. It was unbearable. I took in 2 more pills. I couldn't take it anymore and I reached for my phone. I wanted to make the call but it was so late. Didn't want to wake him up nor worry him. I didn't want to be a troublesome bf. I sat on the bed alone. Blankly I stared at the screen of my phone hoping that somehow he would call me. I cried each time the pain intensified. I wanted him to be with me. Am I selfish not letting him share the pain?

The night went on with me waking up every hour. I could hardly sleep. The painkillers had not much effect. I miss him so much. I really just wish that he could be by my side. By 5am the pain slowly subsided. I could finally get some peace. Dear, I really miss you.

~You Give Me Strength To Carry On~