Footprints of B & B

It was Autumn

where maple leaves shower

covering the very surface of her

the one we call mother

I walked and walked

in search of company

or maybe

just nuts, berries or honey

as i sniffed around

i spot a scent so familiar

with every step i draw closer

it grew stronger

without realizing

we were just inches apart

I looked at that odd looking figure

while its eyes stared right at mine

we checked out each other

somehow we are similar

yes...

it was another bear

his name too has B as a starter

we walked together down a narrow stream

I enjoyed the fun & laughter

how i wished we could keep walking together

to share our thoughts with one another

looking forward to the coming days

hoping our paths will cross again

but until then

take care my dear friend...

~i would like to be your friend~

Footprints of B & J

I wander the dark forest
not knowing where to go
lost & lonely
but there you were
smiling at me
waving
you came near me
and asked of my name
I answered not
for you were a stranger
but you never gave up
patience you clearly stated
again and again
you tried so hard
yet...
I never spoke a word
you never asked of my ignorance
I walked off quietly
closely you followed
every step i took
moments later
a log I found
Berlinia was its name
I sat down
taking deep breaths
you stood beside me
asking if you could sit next to me
answer I did not
yet...
cheerfully
you sat beside me
Again you asked
What's your name?

And that's how the tale began. The story of a curious bear that came across an ignorant bear. J the curious bear & B the ignorant bear. The year 2001 was the mark of a new chapter in the books of bears, 'The Footprints of Brave Bear'...

~what's your name?~

Fragile

I was never a fan of Thai movies. I have never watched any movie with a gay love theme till recently. Bear loves happy endings. The sad endings just breaks my heart. I never thought it would leave such a great impact on me. I feel so weak now. Hoping someone would be there for me to pour it all out. Bear knows its just a movie. No need to be so emo. But somehow... the movie reminds me so much of 'him'. The way 'he' caresses me. Jokes with me. Held me in 'his' arms. The way 'he' took my hands and we would walk the streets. The piggyback ride where people would stare at us but we would just ignore. I missed it so much. Hurts so much to think of it.

Even the final scene of the movie. Reminds me of what I asked 'him'. Its as if at that moment I was Mew and 'he' was Tong. After we broke up, I tried to forget him. Hating him. I try my best to avoid him. Whenever he spoke to me I would scold him. So stupid of me. Immature. Childish. 'He' still cared for me. No matter how much I make him angry he wouldn't mind. Only after the movie I realized that 'he' still cared for me even when we couldn't be together. Even at lunch that day, he noticed that I was down. 'He' asked if I was okay. 'He' asked me to tell 'him' whats wrong. The more 'he' cared for me, the more painful it is for me. But I was happy at the same time. From now on lets refer 'him' as J.

~handle with care~