I'll Stand By You

Thursday, May 31, 2012





(Dedicated this song to my Brave Bear.. enjoy the song and lyrics :)

Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

Oh I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you


Unsettling

Monday, May 28, 2012

I always imagined myself as a piece in a picture. A picture that I could never find myself fit in. I then stumbled upon a beautiful picture fragment That fragment brought me into a new picture, one which was half filled. Together, we painted the rest of the picture with our memories. Sure the picture isn't perfect, but it is the most wonderful picture I have ever seen.

It is tough to be apart for so long. I must admit. Everyday I am plagued by the misery of having to enjoy the beautiful scenery by myself. All I could do was to imagine my love being by my side. I know that he would enjoy the scenery more than I would. Sure that work here is almost stress free. But it certainly comes with a price, the price of having more time vacant for my mind. Time and again I reevaluated our relationship. Does our relationship resemble to father and son? brothers? or best friend? 

I searched deep within my heart. I asked if I love him. And yes I do. How else can I miss him so. But is it really okay not to be sexually attracted to him? We both know that we enjoy each others presence. We enjoy each others company. Is that feeling all that really matters? Unsettled. I stared into the woods, the beautiful trees and blanket of mist, wishing that I would never revisit these thoughts again.

至少還有你

Saturday, May 26, 2012

All those endless nights, I was all alone
When I woke up to the darkness
My heart felt a sense of pain
I was living in my own world
Trying so desperately
To forget all the hurt
All those lonely nights, I was by myself
I was drowning in my sadness
With no one there to turn to
I was just about to lose hope
Buryin’ all of my dreams
Thinking I could not go on
Every time I think of the wound in my heart
Even just a word can make me fall apart
But then you appeared, saving me from my despair
And now, I know that I’m no longer afraid
It’s because of you, I’ve somehow found my way
You’re the miracle who’s standing here by my side
From the depths of my heart
I just want to express
I have faith once again
I’m so thankful to have you
Your patience and your love
Have touched me so deeply that I know we will be together for eternity
By my side



Dis-connected

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Time to write something again... Life in the mountains is really so simple. Work, eat, sleep and watch TV. Occasionally I do get to go online like today. For some reason, my phone is now officially obsolete. Zero connection, I can't text or call anyone (most importantly I can't call my love)! It's now an alarm clock that needs to be recharged every 2 days. The weird thing is that my phone was still functioning and capable of sending out sms 1 week ago. Hopefully the phone is not dead yet, or I will need to scout for a replacement =)

Having that said, I am quite glad that the home is equipped with the basic Astro package. At least I won't die of boredom. 

Really looking forward to the coming Thursday. I will be back in KL. Yippie!!!

It has only been a month here in Jelebu. Although I still get to see my love every 2 weeks or so, I do miss him. I still recall the time when I see him get into his car and drove back home. I stood by roadside trying hard to hold back the tears and all I can hope for is that 2 weeks would pass quickly. We have never been apart as long as this. The separation do has it's good side. Me being so accustomed to having dardar around, often took him for granted. The separation definitely helped drew us closer.