Change

Saturday, October 13, 2018

Time flew so quickly I often forget how long it has been when we had a heart to heart talk. Almost 9 years together we have both changed so much. My dear Pikey have turned from soft tofu to a meaty one. From being uptight to being open about his feelings. I am amazed at how much he has changed.

I have to confess I have changed too. I did things I am not proud of. I have done wild things I have always wanted to do but never had the courage to do cos I was afraid of hurting my dear Pikey. I was probably really selfish. I was being lustful. I wanted to feel sexy and slutty. Having read a certain book, I realized that I really do have 1 life to live. I get to decide for myself what type of life I wanted. What I want to experience I share it with my love. I felt the guilt that came with the pleasure. However, tonight the movie "Call me by your name" has reminded me to just live life. Regardless of what has happened or may happen, what we shared together will always be real.

Even though we have changed, I will always remember that love I have received. Some times I feel so overwhelmed by his love I felt I have not given him equally the same. I know it's silly. We can't measure love in units. I hope it was enough.

Say What U Feel

Tuesday, October 9, 2018



I feel thankful to have found you.

I feel vulnerable to be myself.

I feel worrisome when you are in silent anger.

I feel hurt to make you cry.

I feel grateful you stay with me for so many years.

I feel scared if you ever leave me behind.

I feel like a kid to do silly things with you.

I feel hope when you hold me up from despair.

I feel determined to improve myself.

I feel honored with the sacrifice you have made.

I feel loved holding your hands walking on the street.

I feel pleasure with the things you do to my body.

I feel proud with the intelligence that you have.

I feel insecure with the other people comments

I feel confident when being told I am right.

I feel abnormal to worry so much.

I feel relieved you accepted who I am.

I feel disappointed I am lacking courage.

I feel tired with the negative emotions.

I feel alive because you keep me going.

I feel I need to enjoy the moment more.

I feel I am getting long winded writing this blog entry.

I feel I need I stop here for today.

I feel unbelievable I am blogging again.

I feel curious if readers think the Bear is the author? Or the Pike...

~ピコちゃん~

2018

wow wow wow... Let's start off with a sexy post!

It's been 3 freaking years since this blog have any posts. I have been thinking of resuscitating my lovely blog for quite some time now. So... a lot has happened in my life. Won't be able able to share it all in one post ya.

So let's start with 2018. It has been a crazy year for me so far. Some of you may know that I have spent half a year working in Tokyo. So I took up this training program that my company has offered and have been busy ever since. I had the opportunity to explore Osaka & Tokyo & their greater surroundings while I was there. But now I am back!!! The Japan experience has really changed me as a person. This year alone I have gave up on gaming. More determined now to give in more time to my body and to live a more active life.

My blogging style will probably change a bit considering I am now a changed man yeah... LOL!

I purposely kept this a secret so that I could surprise my boyfriend... Ahem... Not sure if he would join me back into blogging but I have found back my reason for blogging. So, that's all for now my fabulous readers. Ciao!