Not So Happy Winter Solstice Day

Sunday, December 22, 2019

For the past few days, I had the sore throat and at times swallowing was painful. It also didn't help that every morning, I get nose block and running nose. On Sat morning, I thought I was doing fine and I drove to a shopping mall to catch pokemon with Bear. Driving to the shopping mall was a little bit worrying. I was feeling drowsy, maybe from the over counter medicine I had. On a few occasions on the highway, I nearly hit a car. I was not alert.

After lunch with Bear, I decided to leave for home. The crowd and noise at the shopping mall didn't do me any good. I had a good nap in the evening and woke up feeling better. But at night, I was already having a throbbing pain at the back of my head. I rolled on the bed for a long time before I decided to take a pain killer. It was already 1.30am.

I woke up today Sunday morning nearly at 1030 in the morning. I brushed my teeth and had a couple of coughs. I cough till I gagged continuously a few times but vomited nothing. I took a deep breath after that.

I visited the doctor and got a bundle of medicine. I was looking at him in the eyes as he was explaining what was wrong with me. My mind was in a blur, I only caught a few words here and there. Throat infection and affected the sinus that caused the back of my head with intense pain, etc etc.

I took the medicine, anti viral, cough, flu and all sorts. I was in a dreamy state again. I guess those medicine is to make you lie down to rest.

Today there is a gathering with Bear and friends at an airBNB place at KL downtown. It was all planned out like months ago. I messaged Bear that I could not make it. It was a difficult decision for me to make.

I took a nap again in the afternoon. I woke up lying on bed staring at the bedroom ceiling being teary, feeling bad, sad and lonely. I text'ed Bear about how I felt. I just wanted to express it out rather than keep the feelings to myself. I am just being emotional that's there a party out there I could not attend.

I am feeling very bad for myself.


Jaded Jeremy said...

That's awful :( Hoep you feel better soon.