I asked many questions to get a general idea of his condition. From the information that I have gathered, I somehow felt that he is genuine in finding out and to be confirm the he could be one of us. That is given if what he said is nothing but the truth. Perhaps he is really confused. Perhaps he knows and he couldn't accept it until he tries out the experiment. Or perhaps, he is just pretending to get to know me. I am not clear. But this is an opportunity to get to know someone. Perhaps I might find myself a potential bf. If things don't work out, it would still be a good experience.
Somehow I can't stop thinking that he might be a confused straight or bi. And by agreeing to the experiment is like taking advantage of a puzzled little boy. I feel guilty. But then again, I am afraid he would find someone else and things might go bad. At least I am sure, if it were to be me, he would be safe from the monsters outside. Yeah~ I am desperate. But I know clearly this is an experiment to help him. We won't be having anal sex, this I can guarantee :p
L is 20 this year. Yet, I can't help to feel that he is a little boy in need of some guidance from me. From the way he writes and respond as well as his picture, he is really cute! He is a really good listener too. I told him stories of me and he seems to be really eager to know. I really do wish that this isn't some sort of trap or experiment. Bcos slowly, I know I will fall in love with the test subject and it will be difficult for me to regain my grounds again. Even as I am typing this out. I know I have a little feeling for the test subject. Hope I will be able to control myself and wait for the conclusion of the experiment.
~Chances come and go, I will try to make it happen~